I don't know.

I don't know how to start this.
I don't really know how to express my thoughts in writing.

Maybe it's because i'm so used to bottle up all my feelings to myself. Not telling anyone about it. Not writing it to make me feel better.

Maybe all I did to escape from all these feelings is just sleep. Isolate myself from the cruel reality.

Reality is really sucks, jsyk.

I don't know how to heal myself.
I don't know how to get out from this loneliness that i'm trapped in.

How can people be so happy endlessly?

While me, i'm drowning.... in a dark sea of sadness and sorrow.

I'm broken. 

I don't know.

I just don't know when and how did my life be this dark. Be this miserable.

I just don't know. 

UPU Result

Assalamualaikum readers,

Today is the UPU result day and you will see a lot of joyful or even sad updates about it.
As for me, I want to update about how grateful I am to get an offer that I wanted back in my school days. I'm able to choose all the offers I got from UPU, UTM, MATRIKS and IPTS.

*alhamdulillah I got Actuarial Sc UITM* 

But to be honest, none of these offers leads me to Medicine except for Matriculation. 

Obviously, without even me telling you which one that i choose, you can already guess it right? Yes, i chose Matriks. 

My mom was a bit disappointed cuz i didnt get to pursue BSc. Architecture. I thanked God so much that HE didnt give me that or else I will have to "bergaduh" with my mom since she wanted me to do Architecture. 

Maybe my rezeki isnt at Architecture. Maybe my rezeki is either at actuarial sc or at my lifetime dream, Medicine. 

Eventho that I envy some of my friends. They got Foundation in SC UITM. How lucky they are to get that. Yeah my SPM results didnt meet the requirement of foundation sc UITM, thats just why i didnt get it.

To everyone who got an offer from UPU, please be thankful and choose wisely (if you have other choices) 

To those who didnt, be thankful and dont be sad. Theres a better plan of HIM tht awaits you. Be patient cuz Allah is with those who patiently persevere (2:153) 

Thats all from me. Thank you for reading. 

May God bless and ease everything for us :)