I don't know.

I don't know how to start this.
I don't really know how to express my thoughts in writing.

Maybe it's because i'm so used to bottle up all my feelings to myself. Not telling anyone about it. Not writing it to make me feel better.

Maybe all I did to escape from all these feelings is just sleep. Isolate myself from the cruel reality.

Reality is really sucks, jsyk.

I don't know how to heal myself.
I don't know how to get out from this loneliness that i'm trapped in.

How can people be so happy endlessly?

While me, i'm drowning.... in a dark sea of sadness and sorrow.

I'm broken. 

I don't know.

I just don't know when and how did my life be this dark. Be this miserable.

I just don't know.